My Life

and so, the school holiday reaching its end... and i havent done a slightest work for my teaching next week... damn! why am i soo lazy? i like to teach, and the kids are 'wonderful'... they're just kids... but the thing that i cant stand is the observation... i really hate it.. to be observed and penalized for the things i will be doing in class... i really dont like it at all... and the work load, in term of the lp... gosh~ if only i am a permanent teacher, my lp would be just a paragraph...but i admit, i'm beginning to like teaching... it does give me something, a feeling that i could never experience somewhere else... and i know i would definitely miss them,no matter what is the outcome of my mark, i will miss them.. half of me really want to finish this lp faster, but another half just wishing that i could continue teaching those brats... yeah~ i know, i know... at first i am cursing them, but they are just being plain annoying teenager, just the way i used to be,,,...

yahoo!!!sudah cuti sekolah... haha~ tapi aku x balik rumah sebab ada camping PBSM... first time camping dgn 71 boys... mmg memenantkan dan sgt kelakar... ^_^ especially time diaorang masak... macam nak pecah kantin tu... (hujan so masak dlm kantin) kena buat kari la, roti la, sayur kena goreng la... yg best bersiang ikan... pegang ikan tu mcm pegang anak orang... dua jari ja... ish3... muka macam samseng tp nak belah perut ikan pon takut2... tapi ada sorg student ni mmg terer lah... Braddon nama dia (the one in stripe-shirt)... mmg x leh dok diam... sat2 basuh pinggan, sat2 bersiang ikan, sat2 masak air... b'fast, luch n dinner suma dia yg in charge... hahaha~ terkedu aku tgk skill dia... tp mmg best lah camping ni... first time aku camping kat sekolah... i'm starting to love them ady, the students, the teachers and the school.... they really made my day during the camp...

macam x caya ja dah habis dua minggu... ish2... sat gila... so far ok la... the form 4 starts to become a little bit active and the form 2 become a little bit respectful... but i know my journey is still long, so i would like to make the best out of it... of course i can hope, dream and prepare for the best, but everything is up to HIm, whether it will happen or not...i do wish to be better... to learn things that i never done before in my life... i want to bring the joy of learning at least to one person.. i know there are times i couldnt help from depending to her but i really need her... i know sometimes i annoyed her, but i am really clueless of what she is thinking... normal tings ticks her, normal thought made her angry... how am i suppose to know what is she feeling? i try to be independent but i am not that strong... i know i am stupid for i tend to do things wrongly... but i am not perfect,.. i am sorry if i ever offend you... you are my precious friend.. a friend whom i want ...

one word: TIRED!!! its like a waste for me to worry sooo much for form 4, where as i didnt worried at all for form two and it turned out that form four was ok, but form two, Goodness!! like monkeys in the zoo, non stop talking for hours! i was so damn mad that i feel like i want to rip off their head! God know how i want to do it badly!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH! enough with the school, now lets talk about my feeling. after this day, i'm going to give a hard thought whether i am continuing my profession as a teacher... of course not now, but i will give myself this two months and really think hard... i will try my best to tame the form two, and keep up the 'good' work for form four... anyhow, its just the first day... i still have 49 days to go... hahahahaha~