My Life

dekat2 nak sekolah ni makin rancak aku update blog ni... tu tandanya stress sudah mula membukit... walaupun esok just daftar n kemas kelas ja... tapi serius aku stress.. boleh x cam tu? bengong tul aku... dari pagi tadi lagi aku dok stress...  makan pun sikit2 ja... duduk pun serba x kena... buku rekod siap isi dah... esok tinggal nak tulis lesson plan untuk hari selasa ni...  aaaaaaaaa.... awat ni paezah oi... setahun dah kot... tapi awat aku x ingat langsung apa yg aku buat tahun lepas... teruk betui la hang ni!

pergh... balik dari meeting tadi terus rasa nervous... nak kata baru, ni second time dah... maybe sebab cuti lama sangat kot.. rasa cam nak terpitam ja bila dengar amanat2 utk tahun 2012... walhal, kalau banding dengan tahun lepas, banyak lagi highlight dalam takwim tahun lepas... tapi tetiba ja perasaan ni muncul... ish, x suka lah! seriously, i wanna start next year with at least a good mood.. a good feeling... then i know what's spoiling it... 1. there will be observation on the first day.. 10 people will be observed! ( God how i hate observation! i even doa last year to avoid from being observed) 2. i am entrust to be (again) a class teacher, to the same class... and will be teaching english to form 3 , form 4 and form 5 students! dammit! how can i separate my mind, thoughts and everything else... do they expect me to switch just like that when i enter form 3 class, then suddenly switch back to form 4 mode in less than 5 mins? r u kidding me????!!!  i am seriously in dist

terima kasih ALLAH.. sbb bg aku mimpi dia... walaupun dalam realiti kami x mungkin jadi kawan dah tapi sekurang2nya dalam mimpi, kami masih bertegur sapa buat lawak macam besa... rindunya zaman dulu.... rindu kat dia... dia ingat lagi ke x aku ni gamaknya..... huhuhu....... * i miss you so much... sorry for everything that happened *

WEI BODO! HANG NI AWAT BENGAP SGT??? DAH TAU MCM TU PUNYA RESULT, BERUBAH LA... HANG INGAT AKU PANDAI KA DULU? AKU X PANDAI OK! TAPI AKU BERUSAHA SBB AKU X MAU P ****! SO YOU WANT SOMETHING YOU HAVE TO LOOSE SOMETHING TOO!! BUT WHY ON EARTH SUCH SIMPLE THING LIKE THAT CANT BE RESTORED IN YOUR DAMN MIND??? HUH?? THEN, YOU WANT O BLAME OTHERS. HELLO! OTHERS MIGHT NOT BE AS CLEVER AS YOU BUT ONE THING THEY HAVE: MANNER! APPARENTLY YOU DONT HAVE THAT! OF COURSE BEING HUMAN, PEOPLE WILL JUDGE YOU BY YOUR BEHAVIOUR. IF YOU BEHAVE LIKE A BARBARIAN, WITH CHICKEN BRAIN, OF COURSE ANY GOOD THING YOU DO IS IGNORED!!! IF YOU WANT PEOPLE TO TREAT YOU WELL, THEN BE A GOOD BOY! THEN, NO ONE WILL SAY ANYTHING EVEN IF YOU'RE A SERIAL KILLER BEHIND THEIR BACK! URGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY, I AM ONE INCH FROM SLAPPING YOUR FACE! INSTEAD APOLOGISING, YOU JUST TALK BACK! SOOOO BLOODY RUDE! NOW, I DONT WANT TO GIVE A DAMN BOUT YOU! SUIT YOURSEL! YOU WANT TO DIE, THEN GO AHEAD! I HAVE ADV

Don~ Don~ Money~ MOney~ Duit~ Duit~  bila dapat je mmg suka hati... bila habis ja terus susah hati... bila deal dgn dia banyak2 jadi sakit hati... oh duit mengapa hang dok bagi kacau bilau hati ni??? oh well, x dak benda yg senang dalam hidup ni... mungkin dah tertulis... yang penting dah berusaha... sekarang semuanya di tangan ALLAH~ p/s: esok kena p sekolah... oh~ x sukanya... bukan sbb apa, tapi ni petanda... cuti sekolah dah nak habissssssss~~~ huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-(

wah~ dah masuk empat hari OPS NIPPON kat umah... fuh~ mmg penat gila... tu baru satu bilik... ni macam nak merebak ke ruang tamu lak... hehehe... cat sampat lebam2 tangan.. hari ni cuti rehat sat sebab ada lagi cat yang x sampai... pastu abah cadang buang langsir... dia nak makeover lak deco kat ruang tamu tu... honestly, i am soooooo EXCITED !! well, we're stuck with the yellow and orange wall for like almost 10 years... so i guess its time to change... we're planning for blue, a two-tone blue wall for the living room... the blue is gorgeous! i think i will paint my room with the same blue too~ heheheh... anyway, since today is a rest day, i guess i better mekae full use of it... Drama time~~~~ weeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! BENCI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AKU PALING X SUKA ADHOC NI!! WHY?? WHY??? MMG PERLU KA AKU YANG P??? HELLLO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ KAT SEKOLAH TU ADA 80+ CIKGU OK. BUT WHU CHOOSE ME???? DAH LA AKU DOK JAUH! X KAN LA X DAK LANGSUNG CIKGU YG DOK DEKAT & BLEH P TOLONG????????????? YA...YA... I KNOW THAT THERE IS BLOODY PEKELILING SAYING THAT TEACHERS CAN BE CALLED 1/3 OF THEIR HOLIDAYS~ BUT COME ON LA... I HAVE WORK MY BUTT OUT FOR THOSE FORM 3 STUDENTS.. LET ME REST WILL YA!! CALL OTHER TEACHERS WHO HARDLY MOVE THEIR FINGERS FOR THE WHOLE YEAR! BUT WHY ME??????????????????? I HELPED WITH THE TRANSPORTATION.. SO WHOULD IT KILL YOU PEOPLE TO CALL OTHER MARRIED-AND-PERHAPS-ARE-BORED-TO-DEATH-AT-HOME TEACHERS TO GO?????? SERIOUSLY, I DONT UNDERSTAND!

of becoming a human.. of being a sister............ of being the  eldest..... of being a daughter....... and the latest, of being a friend......... me and my bloody......... *sigh* why cant i be like other people who can just switch to such good and comfortable-with personality then perhaps, all of the failure will go away... fakers are hated , so does pretenders ... but the same goes to one stupid-honest-with-no-boundaries person like me .