My Life

another year added to my life... i'm officially 27 this day.... time flies... i admit, that sometimes i feel lost... like i'm the only one who isn't moving forward.... but then again, i'm not alone right? anyway, i started the day with pampering session with all the 'babies' i bought from Body Shop... hehehehe... well, the birthday girl deserved some treat after all right? then off to my tuition class with the kids... it turned out good... a lot came, did the work, and some even scored... i hope they will do it better on the day itself... then, spent  the whole evening with my two lovelies.... Nisrin & kak Umi~ we ate, we laughed, we talked, we cried.... i cherished this memory for at that moment, i am truly blessed with such great friends... and 20 minutes ago, i came back from watching Ninja Turtles with my brother.... we had fun! you should go and watch it if you haven't.... now, if you ask me, why are my parents aren't mention... it's because

yes, she's gone... gone from this world... i thought i wouldnt shed tears yet when I saw her, it didnt stop flowing... she looked so fragile with tubes all around... I forgive her Allah, for everything... and I hope she forgave me too... I didnt manage to say a word... just seeing her from the end of the bed, as the nurse hovered her, twisting tubes, adjusting the liquids...... gone the anger, the dissatisfaction, the hatred... I am a bad person... If only... if only... are phrases that remain 'if only'.... and now she's gone... i hope ALLAH will bless her soul... and keep her comfortable until Kiamat... till we meet again Mak Tok... I loved you... and I am sorry....

 a word to describe me this week.... i am so frustrated with myself & the kids~ i planned well, i prepared well all the materials, but yet they all failed! the kids are so noisy, the class is out of control... i am left utterly exhausted & frustrated.... my friend said that perhaps i had high hope, that's why i prepared things which were too hard for them... but the thing is, they were material from last year, for the same class.... *sigh* i dont know how can i survive these things for another 9 months.... i guess one way to stop feeling frustrated is to have no hope at all for them... maybe they dont deserve to be put on hope.... but one thing that really stop me from doing it is half of them do cooperate and did their work... while the other half make me feel miserable and turned the class into zoo!!!!! i dont know who to talk to, thus lead to this post.... i really pray that i will find the way out from this challenge... i guess the hurdle in teaching comes every three y

is the day.... after a year, now it's time... to answer the questions....again... good luck to me & my fellow friends... let's break our legs! ^^

aaaaaa..... penat2~ baru tiga mngu dah rasa macam 3 tahun... berderet2 event mngu ni.... rasa mcm nak pengsan ja balik2 sekolah,,, adoi la... boleh x saya berenti jd cikgu? tp saya suka jd cikgu... hari ni kelas mencabar sgt... tu yg meroyan sat... haih la.... cepat la habis 2014... boleh gitu?