My Life

tgh hujan lebat kat luaq... nak angkut barang pun x leh... la ni dok kat kuarters... my new home... hehehe... excited nak decorate umah... nak beli cat warna apa ye? td dok syok kemas lupa bw screw driver.. x leh nak cabut katil.. so x leh nak mop... x mau la mop asing2, dua kali keja.. so boring2 nak balik umah... skali hujan da... turun umah baru, measure tingkap... ingat sekejap je hujan lama la pulak... nak masak, apapun x dak kat umah... sink lak tersumbat... yuks~ habis hilang selera makan... uuuu... laparnya... nak balik umah makan.... huhuu... hujan ni bila nak seriat...  bosan nih... bateri pun nak habis dah... seb baik bawa komik... dah la umah ni x dak letrik... menci la... kalau keadaan umah kuarters bersih mesti tido semalam dulu baru nak balik... ni macam tongkang pecah... hish, mmg bengang lah! x kuasa nak korek2 sinki tu... sendiri bagi sumbat, sendiri bagi clear la... aku malas nak tolong... lebih rela dok tercnagak kat umah baru, online... seb baik sejuk... kalau x, h

SERIOUS SHIT! AKU BENCIIIII! WHY LA THEY CHOOSE ME??? DAH LA TAHUN DEPAN LAST PMR, TAHUN DEPAN JUGAK AKU START PBS... DAH LA BENGONG, SATU HAPA TAH X TAU LAGI, NANTI KENA BG IN HOUSE MESTI DOUBLE BENGONG... NI TAMBAH LAGI SATU BENDA YG MACAM SIAL!!! KURSUS 480 JAM TU!!! DAMN IT LA! DAH LA TU, MMG KENA TIME CUTI! A.K.A, X BERCTI LA AKU! MACAM MANA DGN PLAN KOREA??? AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I AM NOT HAPPY WITH THIS!!!

makin banyak kerja... ingatkan lagi selesa...  maklumlah PMR dah x da... tapi kerja makin bertimbun... hari2 jalan sana sini... lenguh kaki.... masa 24jam mmg x cukup sehari... nak lagi.... register lah, yuran lah, buku rekod lah, campur kemas2 bilik yg baru direnovate, pergh... boleh mati nih~ hari2 balik penat... dok menghitung hari membilang jari... lagi 7 hari cuti! pastu boleh jalan2 p sana sini... tapi sebelum tu, ada benda nak story mory skit... I jadik ketua pentaksir PBS BI form 2 tahun depan~ erk... macam nak tercekik jantung bila dapat berita tu... apapun, tahun depan baru kita pikirkan... sekarang, kitaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ENJOY!!!!!!

if something that ticks u off being done over and over again yet u have no power to voice it or go against it? would u just keep quiet... or fight back? even at the cost of your life... i mean not life-or-dead kind of thing but more to totally-change-your-life kind of thing... my patience is at brink i have no idea whether i can take it anymore the thing is the main person who suppose to defend just let it pass so how on earth, me, the other person wants to question all those annoying acts???? i really do not wish to hurt the main person...... but i really can't stand the annoying person!

dah selesai tapi rasa macam x selesai... aku masih x percaya yg dia dah ok... seriously rasa macam dia buat2 lega tapi sebenarnya benda tu masih ada keliling dia... macam mana ni? pelik betul aku ni... the uncle said its gone but somehow i dont think its gone forever... that this is just an act to make us stop from doubting her.... so suspicious,...........................................................................

kira p mai p mai, lagi 30 hari saja lagi nak PMR.... tolak cuti... haish... rsult percubaan sgt tidak ok... mngu depan ada pemantauan lak... aiseh... lagi sebulan pun nak pantau... now, what;s left is to drill trial questions and hopefully, they are able to answer it properly... after that, its all up to them...  . . . . . . . . anyway, i am sooooo not in the mood to go to school.... still in the mood for raya~ hehehe.... this raya has been so busy, people kept coming three days non stop... me & my mom were exhausted~ by forth day, we then were able to breath... and this holiday was also a shocking one! a truth that slaps everyone in my house... a truth that freaks all of us out... a truth that i always hear or read but never cross in my mind that it can happen to our family too....  a TRUTH~    we are braving through it... all of us... hopefully ALLAH will help us... putting what's right back to its place... i can only pray...

wah~ lamanya x post blog... dekat sebulan 3 minggu dah... hmm... kesibukkan hidup serta ketiadaan mood menyebabkan blog ni bersawang.... *mian* apapun, mungkin lepas ni akn kembali aktif... MUNGKIN? hahahaha... minggu depan dah trial PMR... aku yg dup dab dup dab tapi anak murid aku dok hahahaha ja.... macam2 jadi dalam sebulan ni... keta Tiara aku masuk workshop *sob..sob* tapi aku dapat bawak keta Vitara *yeay*. dua minggu ja pun... best la jugak bawa keta besaq ni... cuma dia x power macam keta tiara aku tu... auto lagi... so kaki aku dah x cram... hehehe... its actually a birthday present for my mum... but she's too scared to drive so her daughter la yang bawa kan... ^_^  then, sekarang dah bulan Ramadhan... hari ni 11 dah... tapi kan...............aku terbaca kata akan berlaku suara kuat/tempikan yang akan menggegarkan buni jumaat ni... sbb kalau ikut Mekah, 15 Ramadhan jatuh Jumaat... Hadis tu x sahih tapi ngeri jugak dengar... tempikan tu akan menandakan titik permulaan be

and so the two-weeks-holiday came to an end... its hard to start back... and even hard to leave the house... uhuk2.... its full.. those days... with activities with my family.. and if only it ended nicely... hmmmm... anyhow, its sunday today... time flew fast, tup2, the end of the day already... had sore throat.. uh oh~ not another flu fever again... huwargh... i cannot afford to get sick again... though i did feel like falling sick when i heard the nazir are coming to our school for a week... now feeling slightly uncomfortable... i hope i will be better tomorrow... i better get to sleep early tonight... goodnight~ ^^

i dont know why... last month during this time i'm sick... amonth later, i am sick again... this time until 5 days... yesterday my dad went and pick me home... i got one day mc only, and tonnes of drugs have been consumed... from all sort of brand... i really hope i will get well soon... my holiday is just around the corner.. please... let me be well!

esok ahad, netball kat Pedu... satu hari hilang...  lusa isnin, choral speaking state level.... satu hari jugak hilang.... tulat selasa, cuti am... bahagia~~~~~ hahaahahhaha~   tinggal rabu & khamis ja... dah la dua hari tu, sikit saja kelas... best2... saya suka! ^_^ . . . . . . . . pastu, mnggu satunya, DIE ! sbb 17hb dah mid-term....

its been like six days already.... after the debate competition... i felt tired, and feverish... and it gets worse by thurs so i decided to come home...well, thought it will cure immediately.. but the sickness still lingers... it just wont go away... i really hope it will go because i really could not afford to get sick next week... there's two big events; one, the choral speaking competition and two, the netball comp... with all the troubles i really need all the strength i can get to face them... oh dear... if not, my blood will shoot up and well, let just say that those people would not like me when i'm angry.... hehehe... well, need to rest more... ciao~

yup! 24/7~ work work work & work nonstop the whole week i went back home at 6.30...  today at 12, tomorrow school then, sunday is the day... next week, LDP then the other week, netball... i want to go home....  T.T

what a busy month! non-stop working... everyday i am soo dead tired! by 9.30pm i am soo sleepy... oh god... how can people say being teacher is easy... it is soooo NOT! its getting busier every month and every year new thing emerges... new cycle, new theme, new concept, new project, new plan, every new things they could possibly create... i am getting tired, too tired,... i even forgot things... small but important things.... such as calling my parents, settling the declaration of asset... oh dear... i am getting forgetful day by day... the workloads... can i handle it? i sure hope so... i am afraid that one day i might faint at school... over-worked~

soon. it is official. my laptop will die. when? i dont know. but i know, soon. soooooo bloody slow, nak bukak internet pun terkemut2... buka word pun ambik masa dekat 3 min... tera nak taip lagi, mau dok jam saja word tu.... sama jugak dgn internet... loading fb pun dah 5 min.. nak p tab lain lagi 1 min... uhuk2... dulu saat saja... sekarang bila jadi minit, azab!!!!! aduih... kesian lappy aku... sabaq na... mngu depan confirm aku perbaik hang... *UPDATE* yup! mmg masuk kedai laptop aku! huhuhu... melayang $$$~ tapi apapun, demi baby ku itu, aku sanggup daripada dok tgk dia terkemut2...  baik aku p upgrade terus~ so now using my mum's lappy all my bookmark's gone.. forgot to copy it down before sending today... oh well...

writing my blog from my sister's laptop means only one thing............ my laptop is dying~~~~ currently in shop, being repaired... so far the news is not good... hard disk is deteriorating so perhaps its life span may not last long.... uhuk2~ my baby...... what will i do without you.... so, all in all, i can only be cautious, saving all downloaded thing in my external immediately and save all my work in pendrive.... what to do... if one day it simply die... i'm dead!

Pergh~ dead beat! that's two word to describe this month...  everyday is war...  battle to complete JOBS given..  battle with the kids....  battle with the system... Dead tired coming back from the battlefield... sleep like a dead person everyday wake up like a zombie and start the routine all over again.... my last post written on 11th... nervous waiting for the PEOPLE ... whom didnt come until today... perhaps this SUNDAY . ... who knows....  one thing i know, I"M DYING because of the WORKLOADSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!  P/s: Sunday is the last day of teaching for this month coz Monday to Thursday are examinations day~~~~ ^_^

hohoho.tomorrow we shall die... i mean i shall die...  of heartache/humiliation.... coz they are going to come!! well, lets see if 124 will be a happy post or an opposite one......

another full-schedule day... yet my heart feels empty somehow, or rather something makes me feel that way is it me or what? i just dont know... perhpas i forget something but why didnt u remind me? i thought we're friends... but why the silence... why the avoidance... why the shadow gone? i have no idea, seriously. i want to ask but  like i said, i had a full scheduled day not only today but its been two weeks... so if u happened to read this, please remind me what i forget, please forgive me for whatever i forget to notice....

a month of disaster... hahahaha... i think la... coz the PEOPLE will be coming again to our school... seriously la, i just dont understand them... they want the kids to enjoy English, yes! we can do that but definitely the syllabus wont be finished nor they are prepared for the examinations! yet if the school percentage didnt reach 57%, they will start flooding all these schools, questioning why we didnt reach it.... come on la... u want us to achieve 74%??? are u kidding??!! our previous mark was 47% , last year we increased 53 % that should be enough... slow but increase... but noooo~ u want us to shoot straight high up in the sky~ u think we work magic?? our technique would work wonders?? we are just human~~ we will try our best to do what ever we can, but it the end it is up to HIM whether the rezeki is ours or not.... if not, then redha je la... not condemning others... it is so demotivated ok.... so back to February, we shall see, what would the criticism be... pasrah je lah....

that moment arrived again! the moment of craziness!! of dreaming the impossible! shit la! dah siap kot HC aku... perlu ke hang nak tukaq??? bukan senang tau nak cari orang, tambah2 skit markah, kaji sama ada dia lepas gred apa... kalau hang rasa senang sangat, hang sendirik tukar lah! ni x, sesuka sesuki jer keluarkan statement, nak a brp, peratus lulus berapa... tau la nak dapat APC, SBT, tapi perlu ka terus jump tinggi alam tu oi! x leh ka start skit2, langkah baby steps dulu baru la boleh lari... ni x, macam terus lahir nak budak tu terbang dah! gila ka apa??! huh!! geram gila aku!!!!

 it started with a phone call,... saying that i have a parcel... wondering what its all aout... so far i dint buy anything from overseas... it didnt occur that moment that i've entered a contest... hehehe... so this money my mum make a quick trip to fetch the thing... and guess what?? i won a contest! its a last minute thing and i never thought i would win it!! here's a prove of the present: and when i entered the website, my name was printed there!!!! my abg Henry~ hehehe~ See my name there! i am soo utterly speechless when i opened the parcel.... all this years, i've never won anything... lucky draw or what... but seriously, i am soo happy to get this! of curse its just a pair of slippers, but to me it mean something big~ any way, the journey proceed with going to Menara Zakat... i've worked for a year, so better start early... it all went smooth... the people are kind, the traffic seems clear.. Alhamdullillah3.... it is indeed a wonderful day for me & my m

hmmm.... dah 3 hari cuti kat umah... hari jumaat ok la...menggilakan diri beratur ramai2 di bank bayar PTPTN..hahahahaha~ akhirnya no more PTPTN!!! i am free from it!!! lega... pastu sabtu... p majlis tunang kawan aku... ok la jugak sbb sibuk x hengat dunia... petang balik tergolek... hari ahad la mula menjadi boring... masa bergerak begitu perlahan.... bosan gila... so hari ni, konon nak buat puding... last2 tergolek pitam... seriously pass out macam tu saja sbb letih mop umah... huh! gila lah~ esok baru buat puding lah... apapun masih ada 5 hari cuti.. pasni kembali ke realiti yg x menarik... hahahah~  asalnya post ni nak cita pasal CNY... ramai tanya kenapa x balik raya umah nenek.. jawapannya... BANGRAP! duit angpau bukan macam duit raya... dua ringgit paling koman... nooooooo~~~  minimum angpau rm10 kalau sedaramara... makin tua makin banyak... kan lagi x kawen bleh dapat angpau... so mmg best la kalau aku yg balik...hehehe... tapi yg sengsara, mesti lah parent aku... dulu penah

ku ingat ia-ia semua sudah lega pergi jauh dari tempat ini tapi x kusangka masih mahu bertandang ia-ia sekalian... perlukah? perlukah? perlukah? oh hati. bertabahlah. semoga ALLAH mempermudahkan segalanya. esok... ia datang lagi.... continuation: ia tidak datang hari ni... namun ia mungkin datang esok, lusa, tulat atau tonggeng... ya... bermakna, sakit jantungku akan berlarutan lagi... haish.............

ya! Oh My God! mmg itulah yang aku rasa, dok sebut2 sejak tadi lagi... terbaek lah dari ladang...  bila dapat jadual waktu baru...  minta tambah lain, depa p tambah lain... asalnya aku ajaq form 3G & 3C, form 4T4,and form 5T4...  now, it became form 3G, 3C, & 3 D together with form 5T4... DAMN lah!!! semua kelas peperiksaan!! gila ka apa? aku x mau form 5 tu.... biaq la aku ajak form 4.... 3 kelas form 3 tu aku x ksah, but please not form 5 class la.... i hate them sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! i thought of starting a fresh... u know, them, form 5 now, perhaps they'll change... BULLSHIT lah! a few became worst! i even let out a sentence which a teacher shouldnt say... but seriously i didnt regret at all... i really cant teach them anymore... i'll end up scolding and building up hatred if i enter their class....  BENCINYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeoreobun, annyeong~ ^^ jigeum bi-ga wasseo~ oeneul-ro, niew yeo da... hahahahaha~ araseo? May ALLAH gives blessing to all of us throughout the year... shine us with good health & wealth... may 2012 be a better year for all of us... InsyaALLAH...