My Life

its been four weeks since i first report duty at this school.... well, i started the school sem by crashing my car at the pole in the school,...and unfortunately, i celebrated a month living in naka by flying off the motorbike in an accident last tuesday! hahahaha.... bloody damned~ twice in a month...luckily not badly injured... just big,blue bruise on my left leg... its hideous! other than that i received an injection and the left hand which wasnt suppose to hurt, aching for two days already..... dammit~ *sigh* is this a premonition that i wasnt belong here? such terrible things... the kids even make fun off me... but i dont care that... but i miss the trekking.... huhuhu.... was hoping that i could jalan2 with them... but...haiz...... n again, i hate co-ed school.... why must there be an aigoo??? that make my heart skipped a beat or too when i bumped into him????? doshitte??? come on la faezah...arent u too old to have crushes?? people might think u as a freak! benci betui la!!!!!!

Many times i suppose i shall be having this feelings the dreadful ones... i really need to grow up... i want to stop being dependent and start being independent! each time leaving, i feel sad though i know the fact that they are always here for me still i feel that dreadful feelings.. how i wish i can be numb when  there are time like this so i wont show my worries and make my parents worried over me ah......i feel so useless i want to be an adult!  Damn! ^%&%*%^*^#*(^*#@

akhirnya berakhir sesi persekolahan hari pertama tahun 2011.... first tie jejak kaki masuk kelas.... mcm bengong ja... sebab.... budak sendiri pun x tau depa kelas mana.... huhuu.... apakan daya... aku boleh melihat saja sebab aku bukan guru kelas depa.... pastu masuk kelas form 3 lak, buat la introduction section.... sesungguhnya, aku amat bersyukur kerana depa semua baik2 belaka... mmg x dinafikan ada jgk sorg dua yg buat dono ja tapi overall, they want to learn but their level is a little bit low.... so, all i need to do is work harder in making them understand.... i really pity them... n i really want to see them pass their eng paper.... lets just pray that ALLAH will open their mind and heart to study this year.... Semoga ALLAH memberkati persekolahan anak2 muridku tahun ini.... Amin.....

tahun baru mesti la ada azam baru tahun ni nak...... 1. kumpul duit nak p Korea 2. jadi guru kelas yang berdedikasi 3. nak jadi cikgu yang rajin Dan yang paling penting:   Nak Jadi Lebih Dewasa! tahun2 lepas still bleh lompat sana sini, buat perangai yg x ketahuan hala asyik tidoq ja, makan n online... so harap tahun ni bila buat decision tu pikiaq banyk kali mesti pandai bawa diri adapt dgn kawasan baru mesti berani n yakin pada diri sendiri... dan bila semua ni terlaksana, Baru lah bleh laksana azam no 2 & 3!! *Happy New Year Everyone*