she's gone....
yes, she's gone... gone from this world... i thought i wouldnt shed tears yet when I saw her, it didnt stop flowing... she looked so fragile with tubes all around... I forgive her Allah, for everything... and I hope she forgave me too... I didnt manage to say a word... just seeing her from the end of the bed, as the nurse hovered her, twisting tubes, adjusting the liquids...... gone the anger, the dissatisfaction, the hatred... I am a bad person... If only... if only... are phrases that remain 'if only'.... and now she's gone... i hope ALLAH will bless her soul... and keep her comfortable until Kiamat... till we meet again Mak Tok... I loved you... and I am sorry....