again... it happenend~

who knows that today was another surprise for me... i was having a nice chat with the teachers when suddenly the boys started to cheer on something... boys being boys, so we just ignore.. then the cheers got bigger. i rushed to the window and saw a girl holding up a wooden chair. A FIGHT! and its my class! i ran straight  down to the scene... the class was in a mess.. apparently the kids who ran from camp last months fought... 3 vs 1... i was shocked to see the condition of the victim... she was in complete traumatic and embarrassed... it wasnt a nice fight as they slammed her head against the floor... the wooden chair almost hit her but thank god there are teachers who got there first. she cried, obviously scared and i took her to the 'Bilik Rawatan". her hands were shaking. she kept crying. i waited with her, scared that the other three might attack her. after some time, she told me the reason for their fight... boy. a boy who chose her instead of her friend, a boy who break up with her friend to be with her and of course the fire stone. though i never fight during my school time, i really felt that she is exactly the same like me. the hot-tempered, the bad mouth who can stop blabbering hurtful words... i know she would like to change but what i didnt know is that people here find it hard to accept that. just because of her past... she used to have cases previously. and i dont know really about her past, but people can change... and i know she can... but because of the perception she is bad, people blamed her more than the other three. i found this rather anger me, for me those who the one find fault are the worst. they can just stomach her, her words, for it didnt hurt their physical... why must they resort for physical injuries?  and their stories are different from each other. i guess since they really want to cover up, they could find the excuse/proper escape plan to divert away from the administration.. that's why it became like that... anyway, what i learnt from this lesson, is that even if u have one mistake in ur past, no matter how innocent you are at the present, only past matter. ur position whether u are the victim, or the one not to be blamed, will straight away being shoved. they would definitely say that u r the mastermind! and for the girl, i really hope i could be sort of a help for her.. she is indeed very clever.. last exam she failed due to the hanging out with those scums... this trial she exceeded all her classmates... i really hope she will change, and somehow get away from this school.. start out fresh somewhere no one knows her... only then she can truly succeed....

p/s: i am extremely tired.. two more hours~~~~~~~~ being a class teacher really is a challenge!