macam x rasa pape~

bangun ja tido
tetiba terfikir
nak pakai baju apa la,
nak bawa apa la,
nak p sekolah pukul berapa la,
kalau masuk kelas, nak buat aktiviti apa la...
pelik kan? x la excited sangat
tapi x la kecut perut sangat...
am i ok?
what is wrong with me?
i need anxiety at least a bit coz
that what keeps me alert...
and more intelligent..
in the sense that if i were to teach tomorrow,
my brain would automatically come up with something instantly!
the power of anxiety...
but if tomorrow i go to school with the feeling i'm having now,,, i'm dead!
coz right now i really feel blur and stupid..

i think i need chocolate~ ^_^

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